Jul 2, 2010
For the past 6 months I have been asking God, “What do you want me to do after I graduate from the School of Discipleship?”
In a way it feels like Deja Vu- Back when I was 18 and graduating from high school I knew one thing, no 18 year old is at all equip to decide what their whole future is supposed to be. So I asked God a similar question to the one I posed 6 months back “What am I supposed to do with the rest of my life?”
His answer to me was “Wait”
His most recent answer has been a little different “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10) and you know what, just like that first time, I am so at peace with His answer.
That 1st period of waiting lasted 2 years and I honestly don’t know how long this next period of waitng will be, but I know that God is going to use it!
I would so appreciate your prayers
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Jun 22, 2010
Today I woke up feeling very discouraged. It seemed as though everything that could go wrong, was going wrong. Not to mention that I hadn’t gotten a ton of restful sleep that night. I got to the office, knowing that this feeling of mine was just an attack of the enemy trying to derail me from all that God is doing in my life and through my life. When I got to my desk, the first thing I did after logging into my outlook, is send an email to my house mates and mentor asking that they pray for me.
Not long after that I got emails back from everyone, and they each were encouraging. Praise God for people that I can go to when I’m hurting, and they can pray for me and help me turn away from my self-centeredness and turn my focus back to God where it belongs. This is how the body of believers is supposed to act. Continually lifting each other up in prayer and not discouraging one another through silly bickering that doesn’t effect eternity at all, but distracts us from fulfilling all that God is calling us to do.
One of the emails I got, encouraged me to make a list of all the things God has been faithful in specifically, and of all the praises I can think of. So that is what I’m going to do next. If you want, you can read them below, but if not, that’s perfectly fine. I’m going to make the list below so that I can always go back to it if I need to and I can also be encouraging to others who might be feeling the same as me today.
– God has given me another day in Him to reach the world for eternity
– God has healed me from all of the wounds of my past
– God is faithfully providing the support that I need so I can come back on staff
– My mom gave me a car for when I’m back on staff
– My brother is growing and maturing in the Lord
– God is watching out for all of my loved ones, a task that I could never do as well as Him.
– God is giving me the opportunity to reach the lost in the way I’ve always dreamed of
– He has faithfully healed me from all of my illnesses.
– He is the ONLY one that knows my thoughts better than myself. Thank goodness.
-He loves ME unconditionally!
There are many more where that came from, but even just focusing on the ones above, I’m feeling so much better. Praise God!
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Jun 9, 2010
It’s ridiculous.
I am still struggling with this “transparent” idea about living honestly in front of people. We had all-night-prayer last friday and I found myself zoning around 1 am. One of my friends was praying and I was totally blanking on whatever they were saying and just gazing into the nothingness outside. A few seconds of this and I notice someone glance over at me and instantly I squeeze shut my eyes and put on a very “spiritual” look that resembles the most passionate of prayer-warriors and begin to mumble “mhms” and “yes Lord” in agreement with my friends prayer.
Bit pathetic? You bet, and its not like this was a one time thing either. I am always finding myself doing this. During morning prayer I am forever having to check my motivation because the prayers I am letting come out are more directed at the person listening to me then they are to God, the one who is actually doing something about these prayers.
Ah, but its a process, and there is grace 🙂 we are all learning. sometimes I just which I could catch on a little faster…
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Jun 6, 2010
One of my favorite things about Gospel For Asia is the prayer meetings. We have a prayer meeting every Tuesday night after work, every morning before work on Mondays, Thursdays, and Fridays, Department prayer (The Volunteer department prayer is on Thursday mornings after morning prayer), and then my favorite…once a month we have a Friday all night prayer that goes from 6:30PM till 2:00AM.
It is so encouraging to pray for things that seem totally impossible from the world’s perspective, but when you pray in faith, believing that God has already answered it, and then later on hear about those very prayers being answered…man…it’s so awesome! God is good! So…my encouragement to you is: Keep praying! If you ask in faith, then believe that God will do it! Nothing is too hard or impossible for Him, just think about it. He created EVERYTHING, so how could it even be possible for Him not to do something else?
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Jun 2, 2010
“For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you , being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height– to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:14-19
This is my prayer for all of our brothers and sisters in India, in the Bridge of Hope centers, in my School of Discipleship class, in the people at Gospel For Asia, and for all of you reading this. That we all would learn to depend on God for everything, because He created us, and knows us and His purpose for us is more than we could ever imagine.
That we all would be rooted and grounded in love so that even if we don’t have any earthly things in common, even if we don’t speak the same language, we still have Christ’s love in us that makes us one body, we are unified in Christ.
And that we would all know the love of Christ that supersedes all knowledge, and to be filled with the fullness of God.
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