Today I woke up feeling very discouraged. It seemed as though everything that could go wrong, was going wrong. Not to mention that I hadn’t gotten a ton of restful sleep that night. I got to the office, knowing that this feeling of mine was just an attack of the enemy trying to derail me from all that God is doing in my life and through my life. When I got to my desk, the first thing I did after logging into my outlook, is send an email to my house mates and mentor asking that they pray for me.
Not long after that I got emails back from everyone, and they each were encouraging. Praise God for people that I can go to when I’m hurting, and they can pray for me and help me turn away from my self-centeredness and turn my focus back to God where it belongs. This is how the body of believers is supposed to act. Continually lifting each other up in prayer and not discouraging one another through silly bickering that doesn’t effect eternity at all, but distracts us from fulfilling all that God is calling us to do.
One of the emails I got, encouraged me to make a list of all the things God has been faithful in specifically, and of all the praises I can think of. So that is what I’m going to do next. If you want, you can read them below, but if not, that’s perfectly fine. I’m going to make the list below so that I can always go back to it if I need to and I can also be encouraging to others who might be feeling the same as me today.
– God has given me another day in Him to reach the world for eternity
– God has healed me from all of the wounds of my past
– God is faithfully providing the support that I need so I can come back on staff
– My mom gave me a car for when I’m back on staff
– My brother is growing and maturing in the Lord
– God is watching out for all of my loved ones, a task that I could never do as well as Him.
– God is giving me the opportunity to reach the lost in the way I’ve always dreamed of
– He has faithfully healed me from all of my illnesses.
– He is the ONLY one that knows my thoughts better than myself. Thank goodness.
-He loves ME unconditionally!
There are many more where that came from, but even just focusing on the ones above, I’m feeling so much better. Praise God!
So last night we had a worship night at a staff families house. It was great! We started off by eating as most School of Discipleship events do. Then our very own Alley led us in a few songs. After that it was open for anyone to share what God has been doing or read verses giving Him glory. I was able to share how Awesome Jesus is and how bubbly He makes me. Which is always exciting!!
It was a great night and I was so encouraged by the stories that were told and the way God is moving. It blows my mind to think that He is moving in ALL of our lives and so intricately to boot. He is truely worthy of our praise.
Thank you Jesus
During Christmas time I wrote something in my newsletter about how I was learning about depending on God for things that I wasn’t capable of doing on my own. This has been a constant lesson that I’m learning, so it’s great to go back and re-read all my old newsletters. : ) Here’s what I wrote:
Gospel For Asia is possibly the closest example of how the Body of Christ should be working together. We are like one gigantic family, which is what it should be like. I could go up to almost anybody here and ask them to pray for me for something, and they would do it. Or, in prayer meetings, I am comfortable praying with any one of the people here, simply because of the bond that is so evident between every believer here.
In the Volunteer Department it is spectacular, I feel so close to each of the people, here with me. Right now we are all busy with the Christmas Catalog campaign, where the managers are calling up different volunteers to send them our Christmas catalogs to pass out to others. Then, since there are not many events around Thanksgiving and Christmas, we are registering for events that we will go to next year.
God has been using registrations to get me to depend on Him more. How is He doing that? Well, I have to be more assertive, which I am not very good at, I have to call people to make sure we get the right details, I delegate and pass some work onto our volunteers that come in to the office so that I have more time to do the other jobs I have to do. All of those things combined are hard to do in a work day. So prayer and dependence on God is very much so needed. Without Him, I would be so stressed out that I would make myself sick, and soon, not be able to work at all.
So I am thankful that God is with me every step of the way, and He put amazing people in the department with me so that I can go to them with questions, and not be afraid to ask for help. We are one body, if one part is not working right, the rest will not work as well either, which is why we work together, not afraid to come to each other with our problems. God is good!!