When I prepared to pack my bags for this adventurous world of Carrollton, Texas and Gospel For Asia, I had two rather small minded objectives:
1. I would finally catch up on my books (of which I brought a few).
2. I would finally escape from the pressing issues back home.
Today, as I write this, I can say that I have not been able to pick up any of the books I brought with me and not only am I going back to the issues I left, I am going to have to face them.
All of that to say, my expectations for this “1 month internship” were completely shattered.
And then there’s all this praying.
I have had to realize that the staff and students here pray CONSTANTLY. I mean, incredibly consistantly. It doesn’t matter whether they want to or not, though, because its rather necessary.
I dont think that I expected anything more or anything less. I think I just didn’t expect any of it.
But oh, what joy it has been to have my expectations of people and experiences completely destroyed because really, I am the only one who is hindered by them.
So I go into the deep places of my mind and of my heart and I see that all of these expectations, or lack there of, were made to awaken me from a sleep that I had not known I was overcome with.
But as I wake, I am entrusted with the knowledge of my ability to speak to God constantly. Without ceasing.
And I know in my heart that all this praying was what I should have been doing all along.
How God changes our plans so often…I’m right there with you too Jess. Your objectives were very similar to my own as well as the encountering of GFA’s devotion to praying to God about everything. Hope to hear from you soon again.
I brought books too!!! haha how little did I know..